Posted on: Sunday, October 08, 2006
Posted at: 6:02 AM
today pastor prayed for me! ok, it was scary, i really dunno how to describe, juz that i was really resistant and all, but joanne kinda persuaded me to go. i din dare to go. at first, i was trembling like mad but the weird thing was its not bcuz of the cold, cuz outside i feel perfectly ok, i also dunno wad was happening. i tried to stop it but it din go away like it always did. then joanne kind of came and pulled me in front. now i think abt it, i think it was God. i think God wanted me to go. why would i tremble so hard for no reason if its not bcuz of the cold? but aniwae i told joanne i dowan to go but she asked me whether i want to experience God and i was like aiya, wad the heck la, juz go lohx, so in the end i relented.
now im feeling sad. i came home and i really wanted to tell my parents i encountered God today! but then they would think i was possessed and would not want me go church, to make things worse, they shouted at me for coming home late so actually, i felt crushed. and my emotions went downhill. i wanted to tell somebody but i dunno who. haiz. nvrm la, oh no God, now You have made me greedy, now i want to do so many things. i shall follow wad sam told me and read bible for at least 10mins everyday, shall try and not be lazy.
