Posted on: Saturday, January 03, 2009
Posted at: 9:43 PM
Everytime I read the papers, I get impacted. And its not really in a good way. Israel against the Palestinians, foreign workers being ill treated, recession, conflict btw north and south korea etc etc. Such huge events are happening around the world and I feel so small. Comparably insignificant. Haha. Emotions just get evoked in me and I feel something. Is there any way I can help? I have a vision to help free the oppressed in the world but how much can I do? And then I get sucked into my own little problems of unemployment, PO and well, stress. Many have been telling me how slack and relaxed I can be after the As but it doesnt seem to be so. Instead, PO has become more intense, my sense of helplessness against people who do not want to employ me is increasing. I am afraid to look at my parents because there is this sense of disappointment and exasperation in their eyes. They cant understand why am I doing all these.
Yesterday Pastor talked about ETHOS, a tribal fire, a tribal emotion. And I am impacted by such unity. HOGC should not be taken for granted. In HOGC, there are archives of lifestories.So precious to pastors that they'd give up all they may have in order to give us all that God desires. I had flashbacks of the past, and I thank God for giving me all of these. Without You, I am nothing. Faith just rose up in me and I'll continue believing. No matter how tough it is and it may be, I'll still believe.
The ETHOS of the church: We use the church to build people and not people to build the church.
-There can be miracles, when you belive-
And HOGC is one to me.
