Posted on: Thursday, August 28, 2008
Posted at: 7:43 AM
I had an outing with my mum today... bought a dress for my uncles's wedding dinner in nov... lol
brain is a little bit blocked. there seems to be too many things to study that i dont know where to start. anyhow, i just hope to get most of the stuff neatly compartmentalised and my brain gears should start to move faster.
I will be going service for sat and sun! :) I pray that tml's outing will be fine, relationships will be built and established even more strongly. and it will be another step to get one saved and planted!
Posted on: Tuesday, August 26, 2008
Posted at: 12:00 AM
The weather is a little...hmm...mad...
But I love it!
Seriously, the switch is like my snapping back to reality... I feel that my physical body belongs here, here, in the city and i dont detest it, but somehow, I just feel that my heart wants to go somewhere, somewhere filled with overgrown plains and mountains and wildflowers. Yet I know i will most prob never be able to survive in such places void of technology. Im fascinated, really, by the creations of God.
I am here, yet not here. I am there, yet not there. (gosh i sound like Boey with all his weird musings and angst about identity) that's what lit does to you i guess. Im not emo, just musing. And i realise my mind likes to wander off, it crosses eras to pre-modern England and then it starts imagining about magical things like beautiful vampires and werewolves. Its weird but the mind is all so powerful and all so destructive. And then it starts musing about the reality and meaning of love. I think books actually play a part in imprinting images in your mind too.
Right, I shall return to my reality of maths prelim paper tml.
Posted on: Monday, August 18, 2008
Posted at: 3:04 AM
Today is such an important day because its the first ever time k actually took note of my presence! oh my gosh such an acheivement! lol... for once, she actually called my name... got a huge shock cuz I was like 'oh no she wont call me cuz she dont know my name' and feeling all so secure and proud of myself and no, she just had to call my name. oh man...first time in a whole year apart from the first lesson. aiight, need to mark out this day or something. haha.
i decided to take a break so here I am. Just had quiet time just now and it was so awesome.God's presence was so strong, not really in the loving encouraging kind of way but more of a powerful holy spirit kind of way that my hands almost trembled. Everytime i stand right in front of the centre of the stage waiting for pastors or my leaders to pray for me i will always tremble because of the strong presence of God. But i was just asking Him for the greater purpose of the holy spirit. I told Him it can't be just for the speaking of tongues. It must be something greater. And then He told me that one of the purposes is for CONNECTION. AMAZINGLY TRUE. So applicable to b4. Then bam! His presence just came. How can anyone doubt the presence of God or the love of God? How is it possible that we wont doubt the efficiency of the lift to bring us down or up even before we step in and yet we doubt the reality of God?
'Believe and you shall see'
Truly, I have seen.
Posted on: Friday, August 15, 2008
Posted at: 9:04 AM
I think today was a looong day... tried very very hard to stay awake and not stone at the teacher. My resolution kind of crumbled during chem. But it was an academically fulfilling day! with respect to lit that is. Had consultations with tan and k and really, it was not bad. Learnt a lot and it forces me to study and conquer my fear of k. lol. I think k's lesson kind of rejuvenated my mind. haha.
I cant wait! Tml im going to school and then to church! i think some friends are coming! Joy is coming! literally and figuratively. lol... its going to be awesome!
Posted on: Thursday, August 14, 2008
Posted at: 1:49 AM
AIIIGGHHTT!!!! A quick update on my life...realised that I have not been blogging for a very long time...
Basically, its just study study study. Trying my best not to be jaded by school. For some reason, I really feel like just throwing my books away and watching tv the whole day or just slack. Slack is a bad word. As bro Christian will say, we should be resting instead of slacking. haha.
I think the lit teachers ah... really should get a proper life. I really respect and grateful to them for sacrificing their time to stay late to give us lectures but i think if they can just reduce their mcs and come for proper lessons, wont it be better? Almost every single day we have lit lectures from 5.30 to 6.30. Latest update, we have lit lect tml from 6-7. At this rate, im really going mad. As k puts it aptly, we have too many lectures such that we dont have time for consultations!!! Maybe that's why the first few science classes always do better than us.. because they have a terrific timetable and they have time to study!!! ok, maybe im just complaining and expressing how wretched i feel about this. lol
Anyways, going to have cg later! yay, its going to be awesome, hope my parents dont find out though... and my bro is growing! he really likes church now! lol
Now, its either I break it or make it. Cliche as it may sound but I know this is a period I need to overcome. I just pray for clarity of vision and focus in my spiritual life as well as in my academic life. Its going to happen and Im going to soar like never before.
Forgive my random rantings..
