Posted on: Sunday, November 04, 2007
Posted at: 4:58 AM
Hi hi! im just blogging for the sake of blogging... haha... i dont want to feel emo too often le...emo is just really letting ur feelings overwhelm u and ur thinking... would rather i control my own emotions...
Emo and feeling sad for others is different! emo is usually self-centered.. God, break my heart with what break yours but pull me away from emo! i shall have a big heart for others... i shall call forth the things that are not as those they were! this is not self-delusion...this is an act of FAITH! and God works through faith!
yay, its the hols manz! so many exciting things coming up in church! Getting Started bible study series followd by Enrichment classes followed by Zone B and C camp followed by Vacation Bible School followed by Christmas followed by New Year's Eve! WOW! i still rmb the time a few yrs back when i would stone or simply waste my time away during the hols, perpetually doing nothing... the outings were also few and the fun was also momentary... but hey, i look forward to this hols! cuz i know my life would be changed, my soul refreshed, my spirit more on fire than ever and ready to go back to school!
im amazed at the joy and peace in my heart that is only God-given... even if im not happy, i still have the joy of God in me and this is something that keeps me going, that gives me the courage to smile and be myself even if the situation seems to be real pressing. i rmb once i really felt so emotionally stressed and traumatised i was so desperate to have peace in my heart... i asked a few times and it din really come, so in my desperation, i repeated a verse 'trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding, in all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your path straight' two times and miraculously, God's peace just really filled me. It was so precious at that time that i just sat still, refusing to move for fear that the peace would go away. eventually i had to but the peace really stayed. As usual, God nvr fails to amaze me nor fail to always be with me...
-No longer I but Christ who lives in me-
