Posted on: Monday, April 30, 2007
Posted at: 7:16 AM
hi bloggie! just feel like updating...
i think the one thing that i really need to work on is my love for others. i want to love people, u know, unconditionally, just like how God loves me! yea... i shall rise up...if i do something i'd never done before...yeps...so its up to my decision!
once u make a decision, things start to happen... so make good decisions! dots...haha
Posted on: Monday, April 23, 2007
Posted at: 6:52 AM
i dont want to go to pulau tekong! this wednesday some more! the only day when i can go home early...and im stuck with this trip. from 12 to 6 somemore! wad the...... can i not go please? maybe i should just pon school on wednesday, hopefully they will not send me to dc if i give parent's letter. arghhh...wadeva... thanks ah, to the people in my class who put my name down without my consent. wadeva...
Lord, i pray that You will open a way out for me to get out of this trip im in that i am really reluctant to go. please God. thankew Lord, in Jesus's name, AMEN! :)
Posted on: Tuesday, April 17, 2007
Posted at: 11:48 PM
I AM SO GOING TO
BREAK THE CHAINS OF REPEATS! (if u get what i mean) =) i long to grow, i want to grow, i am going to grow...~i want to grow, i want to grow grow grow~ lalala...
finally i can reach home early before like 5. its a blessing manz... haha...
chiong chiong chiong! PI! its really irritating, just when i tot i had finished all the hmwk for this two weeks, then PI pops up. wadeva...lalala...=p
Posted on: Wednesday, April 11, 2007
Posted at: 7:10 AM
im not blaming anyone! im just usually angry at myself... haha...weird and random...but well...actually... i feel like eating ice-cream now...LOL :p
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Posted at: 6:59 AM
sorry about this but i am EMO!!! these few days emo until cannot emo le. for once, i din care abt wat others would think and i just emo in front of my class. dots...but not for very long la, i cant be emo very long when im with my class...lol...
im sorry about this but something's affecting me...people can laugh over it and be obssessed over it, but its really affecting me... i said like so many times to some people le...a bit mad to think of such things at such age right? although me also got think a bit but i really think we all a bit mad le... hahaha...
i want to grow... come on la, nobody ever wants to stagnate down there one lo... like duh...but how come a lot of things seems to be all my fault ah? i always have this feeling...sometimes i dont know how to argue, so i will just accept its my fault. sometimes me like very petty and unreasonable like that, but u think i want to feel that way? i always swallow and swallow and try to forget abt it. yeps, its all small things...maybe i seem small... but the emotions and probs keep coming and coming...i can only look to God since i dont noe how to make others understand...
hahahah... tired and emo... but i realise that when u are emo, u type emo stuff, will be even more emo, so im actually feeling deep in the dumps when i type this post. i love music!
Posted on: Thursday, April 05, 2007
Posted at: 2:48 AM
hahahahaahahahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahah
ok, now my blog is feeling happier le! always all the emo posts...eeee...dont like emo... i like melancholy haha...ya la, recently quite pissed over little things...no its not pms...lol
anyways, God, i pray that my friends will come for service on easter, eugene and yunyi! i pray that they will come Lord! and i pray for strength and wisdom and patience to deal with some people who is really taking me for granted and who hurts my pride. i pray for STRENGTH Lord! AND COURAGE! Lord, i pray for the strength to always always stand up when i fall, to always always look to you when i feel miserable, to always always never give up on You no matter how hard things may get. God, You cant shake me away le, I will not give up on You...because...i need You.
thank You my Father in heaven...in jesus's name, Amen...
hur hur...no, im not crying... haha...
Posted on: Tuesday, April 03, 2007
Posted at: 6:28 AM
today was a not so good day...
it started off with a really depressing chem tutorial...i din understand the whole thing...wondered why i even took chem when i practically failed all my tests and exams for chem in sec 4. im sorry God, i think that time You wanted me to take physics, and i din listen, now im just suffering for my own decisions. haiz... i must break through! i must learn how to listen to Him with an open heart, with faith, and not with fear. i want to be obedient!
anyway, the day moved on with everyone saying me very bimbo. haiz...its just my actions la, and i dont exactly want to change for others, cuz sometimes its really just the way that i am. im sorry if u dont like it... and i see people giving raised eyebrows, roll eyes, and i cant help but notice every detail and wonder what exactly are they thinking inside. do they find me weird? am i really bimbo? is it very annoying? should i attempt to change? this tots keep running thru my mind.
and then almost everybody started saying that me and geraldine look alike, and my gp teacher called me Geraldine! then george from A06 say we look alike...dots... not that i offended or anything, haha, just stating wat happened.
then rachel say i very er...how to translate to english ah? its something along the lines of bimbo and sa-jiaoing...just because i said 'this guy not bad ah, quite shuai' and 'wad crap lo!(x5)' thats all i did. and then haiz...dunno la, the easter thing also. maybe its just my prob la, aahhh...i very scared will become like last time liddat! i dowan!
maybe its because of this constant insecurity coming back and my reluctance and fear to hear God that i cant really grow a lot or be a leader...sad...
but on a happier note, God is gracious! He know that i feel so miserable then He cancelled PE! so i can go home like so early which was cool! yay! thanks God! my mood just changed from there lo! haha...God is the best... dont worry, i will break through someday, soon, real soon!
