Posted on: Wednesday, January 31, 2007
Posted at: 6:04 AM
hihi! just drop in a small post. today go and wrap cookie crisps with that woman. wah, not bad ah, got talent de lehx, even more meticulous than me. din expect it. haha. its a compliment ok?! im discovering more about you each day! that's good! haha
yups, so im learning to be more nimble with my fingers and cut straight! woots, wrap 41 packets le! but like that cost 1o dollars le, dunno how leh. ah, God, bless me financially!
SA, no matter how irritating, still has a lot of lost sheep. lets jiayou! im going to stay strong, for people, for my leaders, my friends, my pastors, my God. AMEN!
Posted on: Tuesday, January 23, 2007
Posted at: 5:12 AM
haha, i should stop all the stupid self-analysis i have found myself doing these few days. the only thing i have acheived is putting myself down. that is a stupid thing to do. very dumb. i shall not revert to my old ways of analyzing and scrutinising every single thing i do. its bad its bad. so everyone, do not do it too!
i have to relax manz...relax relax... see ting wei ah, let urself just go with the flow manz, dun be so tensed up, u will shrivel up in no time. jiayou! God loves you and i love you too!
Posted on: Wednesday, January 17, 2007
Posted at: 2:03 AM
haiz...ok fine. im feeling a little teeny weeny down now, but see ting wei belinda will always be see ting wei belinda! i belive see ting wei belinda will not stay down foreva! i will always be ok after half an hour or so. haha.
anyway, juz decided to blog abt how im feeling cuz i dunno how else to let it all out. school is not exactly nice, i dunno why but after pe i especially missed home a lot. haha. im still a mummy's girl. yea, that i have to admit. guess i juz need some time to adjust to the new faces, new environment, new changes etc.
i found quite a few fellow christians in my og and class and i sort of talked to them for quite a while la. good to hear them share about how their lives were changed after they really committed themselves to God. but then some pple who claimed to be christians are not really on fire. i asked them why they dowan go church, and they said they were lazy, church quite sian, their friends not going there also.because their friends go then they go de. then i asked them how abt God? and then they tell me they do believe in God but just dun like go church.
reminds me of wat pastor said. You like the head but not the body. haha. no la, im not condemning anyone, i just feel very sad for them. they dunno how much they are losing out and the fact that i know doesn't really help. haha. i am getting seriously too soft-hearted. my heart just goes out to them. its kind of irritating sometimes. they can treat God like a last resort and although i laugh and talk and crap with them, inside i feel so sad for them. and got 1 friend told me how he will like to get them for Christ, and i dunno why but i just feel something a little wrong somewhere. about the way he told me. but i cant just point out where is wrong exactly. haha
alright, so i went looking at people's blog and started reading then this nostalgia suddenly hit me and then the song 'i simply live for You' just came playing and i Almost wanted to cry. of course, being see ting wei belinda, i didn't. haha.
so many people lost, so many character flaws unchanged, so many pple not really growing. its sad isn't it? but its ok, cuz God will always be God. do you get what i mean?
ok, im back! im fine again, this time took around 20 mins. haha, woots.
Posted on: Monday, January 15, 2007
Posted at: 12:29 AM
yay! im finally blogging after days of stagnating...haha. wow, its a great feeling when u blog and ur com doesn't hang. whoo! i love my com! its a black lady! lol
ok, so these few days quite slack, and im not looking forward to lessons at all. secondary school life seems how many years ago and jc is just not really enjoyable. haha. haiz.. i tried to talk to new people lehx but the things that they talk about ah, i would rather not listen. and they talk online quite late and i dun like going to all the arcade, pool place they go, so i always seem quite anti-social ah...haha. haiyo. how to get into their lives eh? i don't want to be friendly, i want to be friends. God help me.
although st andrews is a christian school, the christian stuff they do however causes me to miss heart of God church even more! is that a good thing or a bad thing? well anyway, i realised juz yesterday how i can be in church, yet still miss church. i was worshipping and then i suddenly miss church and the people there a lot a lot even though i was there. haha. Daniel rawks manz! He can worship! Not sing but worship! i love you daniel, deep down in my heart... haha, but God, i love You the best!
now another problem is wad combi im going to take when my o lvl results are finally released. my uncle and my mum talk to me a lot lehx, and basically, it was about how useless it was to take lit as a subject and that i should take science. they asked me to choose between passion and reality! ya right, like how can i choose? eventually i will juz take science la huh?
and then maybe i will juz turn up to be some science idiot with a morbid sch life.
one sentence to summarize how im feeling for these few weeks
'my heart is dry, but still im singing...'actually this is my fav line from the song and it describes exactly how i feel. haha.
