Posted on: Friday, September 29, 2006
Posted at: 5:24 AM
Wahh, im so lagging behind in my study rule, but if I dun get this off and write it here, im so going to choke when I study and nth will get in. im suffering from the my lovely samsoon withdrawal symptoms!!! I finished watching the whole show today, its quite a funny and happy ending la, but the thing is I always feel very sad after watching the last episode of a very good Korean show. That always happens to me. So now, im feeling sad and miserable. The guy is very shuai! I love his face frm the side view! It's the most shuai angle! He got one small mole at the side of his face but that makes him so child like. Ya la, although he a bit pervertic but very ke ai! The way he acts juz makes me laugh like mad, like little kid liddat and he so scared of samsoon and her mum. Lol. Now im so gonna miss him. Hyun-bin, that is his name. Ahh, henry aka Daniel henney also very ke ai! He looks like a greek god and he so cute cuz he dun understand Korean then whenever hyun-bin scolding him, he cannot understand de. LOL. He very very funny.
I rmb once I also watch finish a very very sad part of another Korean show at arnd 2am and then I cannot fall aslp, only slept frm 3 to5am. Cuz I was awake thinking of how sad the show is. Dumb right? But u see, that is juz me, super emotional and sensitive and easily affected. Haha. But I always feel sad when I watch finish a Korean show I like. Korean shows are getting better, though their plot still a little cliché, but aniwae, the actors and actresses are fabulous! I think it muz be the environment they grew up in, they are very polite and pro. I love my prince of tears, if u are wondering who is that prince, let me tell u. he is a Korean and If u dunno why I call him the prince of tears, then u are so lousy. Hyun-bin is ke ai but also quite shuai. He very man mah! Lee joon ki is beautiful and shuai. I can juz sit the whole day and fantasize, but then it's a waste of time.
Haiz..okok, I go and do wadeva sylvia want me to do liao. Im still feeling miserable, oh I hate this feeling after every Korean show. Chocolate does not help.I LIKE GUYS WHO CAN PLAY THE PIANO! (hyun-bin can) Cuz I also want to learn..
Posted on: Thursday, September 21, 2006
Posted at: 7:29 AM
Never in my life have I felt so broke. Haha. Im practically left with $0 and I have to keep worrying every single day whether my mum will find out that I used all of my money. I also dunno how I can pull it off manz. I juz pray that I will have enough money somehow to replace the money I used before she finds out. The weird thing is, I dun even noe where I spend my money, lets see. Hmm, oh I realised that I din buy anything for myself except today go eat fish and co. mostly is used on presents and building fund. At least I finished building fund. Now I juz have to find some money to cover the rest of my expenses. My mother very nice, she everytime will provide me money no matter how broke she is, so I feel very sorry for spending it all away. Weird, I also nvr eat much nowadays. Ahh, life without money juz lacks some sense of security, I pray that God will bless me soon ah..
Oh sylvia and fedora! I finally opened the bible u all gave me a long time ago today! I wanted to open it long ago but then Im always worried that I will make spoil, so keep until now. But I opened it today very carefully, (I still keep the plastic thing covering it). If I open on my birthday then got more meaning mah, yea, today I got 2 birthday presents including bible! Hahaha.
Hurhur, im not fire fifteen anymore, I dowan sweet sixteen. Haha, no link but I like the word fire, so fire fifteen lohx! I like being fifteen, sixteen sounds so old. Today when I woke up and feeling so groggy, I suddenly rmbed that today is 21st sep, and im not going to be fire fifteen after 1.46pm, sadd. I think today was very rushed, so fast the day over. This shows that the world still moves on no matter wad day it is, no matter how hard u try to retain time. So the only way is to move on urself. Feel so tired, a little lost, as usual. Haiyo.. sadd, lets sing a birthday song to myself.
Happy birthday to me
Happy birthday to me
Happy birthday to meHappy birthday to me............................................................
Posted on: Monday, September 18, 2006
Posted at: 7:00 AM
Hello my dear bloggie.. juz felt like blogging smth abt my own life, my own thoughts, my own stuff. Its been a while and I have juz been filling my bloggie with crap. Haha. Aniwae, I was juz wondering abt this thing called sense of belonging. All my life I have been hopping here there and everywhere trying to find acceptance and trying to juz belong somewhere. Now, im still hopping though I noe I belong to God. Haha, im sure that I cannot do without God, but juz that im trying to find this thing called sense of belonging in church. Ok, I dunno how to elaborate further, wadeva I feel is either unexplainable or that Im juz too lazy to figure out how to untangle the chains of thoughts in my brain. Aniwae, im trying, trying hard to find out wad to do, getting the right mindset, doing the right thing, getting my heart on fire, reviving the passion. Although there are still times when I get confused and dunno wad to do, I will try to find look more towards God or find solutions, if not, at least put it on whole, but I wont think abt it cuz I scared later the devil can put even more weirder tots in my head. I muz always rmb that dumb experience and I dowan to go through the same thing again. I got a thousand qns in my brain, in my heart, but I dunno who to ask! I tried asking, but then it always gets nowhere. I want to noe how to deal with probs instead of juz burying them somewhere like I used to. Ok wait stop! Devil go away, I dun want to be affected again! Shhh!
I noe I got a lot of fears, a lot of 'I dunno how'. I dunno how to deal with them, I want someone to teach me, but everybody like so busy so I also will feel paiseh. I always look through emails without absorbing the content, so emailing to find help for me is ineffective manz. Aniwae, I was juz trying to find where I really belong in church, I am always juz hopping here then back there then here again, I dunno my team, mabbe its my fault, I din take the initiative. Oh yea, I need to find my focus. Nvrm, juz found smth really ironic but I wont say what. Haha, feel like asking God to take a pen and write all the answers down on paper or juz on air. Yay! Tml im at home the whole morning! Can worship without fearing my parents or my brother will think Im siao. Haha.
p.s sir Andrew is really stupid. Oh, and im starting to like hyun bin! Hehehx. But I still like lee joon ki!
Posted on: Friday, September 15, 2006
Posted at: 3:40 AM
A tragedy happened yesterday..i lost my wallet, finally I had to pay the price for my carelessness.. I lost my ezlink, 6 bucks, my barbie wallet, the cards stuffed inside pple had given me and my whole packet of ear sticks! Sounds like a small fortune I lost eh? Aniwae, its weird cuz pple will usually start to panic and I tried to make myself panic and it unfortunately didnt work. There was this stubborn calmness that refuses to give in to fear. I thought I was abnormal. Hahaha, im serious, usually I will panic like mad and start crying down there. Everytime I do. I think this time, it was God. So I went to eat then went all the way to ang mo kio as the cursed 135 bus goes there in order to search for my missing pink barbie wallet. But the person tell me that the bus driver never picked up any lost items, so well ya, I lost my wallet and then the reality started to slowly sink in, but then, there was still no sign of panic in my heart although I went 'how? How? How? die liao!' so many times to sylvia. So there was nth we could do so we sat down in the middle of the interchange and started singing 'From the inside out'. Haha. Actually the one thing I was super scared about was how to tell my mum, but aniwae, I called her and told her and that was when the real thing came. Haha, luckily she nvr scold when I go home but she told me I have to use my own 20 bucks to pay for ezlink. Dat 20 bucks meant for building fund lehx! Hope I can find alternatives or receive some blessings. Ok, I feel bad abt my ezlink and my barbie wallet but I have decided to think of it in a more positive manner. By losing this wallet, my mum will most prob buy another new one, maybe I will get back even more blessings and maybe this will teach me not to be so blur but I think the probability of this happening is 0.01 so ya.
Oh, and I have to say something, thanks seal for accompanying me all the way to ang mo kio and for lending me transport fare and for being juz there cuz there is a high chance that I will not noe wad to do and remain blur and walk around panicking but doing nth useful. Oh yea, im sorry for causing u to have to walk in the rain with me to get to the 162 bustop, I still dunno where it is, forgot liao, and sorry to make u lose ur study time. Are u touched sylvia?!?!?! Haha, eh, cry ah..And my mum found the whole stack of money for my building fund, luckily I came up with a more or less convincing story but I still got scolded aniwae, haha.
Posted on: Wednesday, September 06, 2006
Posted at: 1:02 AM
i want to blog abt my korean wah wah...also known as my korean doll doll...
haha, it has been in my household since i was born and i din notice, until recently when i looked at it really closely and found that it was wearing a korean traditional costume! haha, got a shock then went to ask my mama and realised that my aunt bought it when like she went korea for her honeymoon...haha. but aniwae, i was scared of that doll doll la, very pretty, and it holds like 2 feathery fans but ah, im always scared of this kind of display doll so din really dare to look at it straight in the eye whenever i walk past the glass cabinet. today i went to take it out and observe it then dunno why still very scared of its expression, oh, she is smiling by the way so i quickly put it back. haha,i like her clothes la...
even now, im still scared of clowns and u noe the pple with heavy pinkish makeup in the chinese opera...diao...
oh and by the way,
jomain is just beside me and im stealing her fish snack...
GAMSAHAMNIDA!
haha...
ss and emaths coming up nxt, haiz, having bad feelings abt my prelims, cuz everytime i study there will be fear...but nvrm, i shall juz look to God...
oh, u noe, i talk to my beloved bao bao, also known as my bolster last time until like sec2, haha, dat was how insecure i felt last time...i even invented my own god to protect me u noe, and i also invented an evil one but then ah, he always kena banished by the good god down to a huge black hole, but then, he will always come back again...diao...haha, so funny come to think of it, now, i really have a good God and a evil Devil. oh and at that time, my bolster would be my medium in which i will tell it smth then it is supposed to ask that good god for me...hehehx, now ah, i have Jesus... He's a much better choice then my bloster hor? haha. ya now i really find it so funny, cuz last time i dun dare to be bad to my bolster but now i always kick it around when i sleep, diao. ok, now i really find the whole thing funny, let me laugh awhile...*LOL*
oh yea, i wish ljk can come singapore, i think korean stars all very good-mannered and professional one lehx! LOL...
