Posted on: Monday, August 28, 2006
Posted at: 4:21 AM
Haha, feel up to blogging today, so shall juz write a few words.
Aniwae, today, I screwed up. Muz take screwdriver and unscrew but a bit too late huh. I din noe wad I was writing for my compo, totally screwed up. My mind was blank and I wrote blindly, not knowing where I was heading. The only words that popped into my brain were 'power, status and wealth' and then came 'nature, family, purpose'. Its so weird, I was writing abt wealth and the nxt sentence that came was all about nature. Screwed. Sighs, and yesterday I was freaking out cuz I was worried that I could not do well, mabbe I have this power of premonition. Haha. I din noe wad I was writing and juz wrote wadeva that popped up in my brain. The sentences were awkward and unsophisticated, I think it is a disgrace to English manz. The only thing that I could actually notice was my handwriting getting bigger and bigger. -.- sadz. I din even noe wad to write for situational writing so throughout the whole exam, I was like 'God how?! How how how?! God how?!' but apparently I juz self-deceivingly assumed that everything was alright and continued writing I dunno what. Haiz, want to slp.
Aniwae, I have a lot of whys in my head, but nvrm, I think I noe the answers. Haha, diao. Oh, last service wad pastor said reminded me of my essay, the one on Secrets. Haha, the one that I dun dare to read, dunno why, I dun dare to read wad I write, a bit funny horx? But its only for that essay. Aniwae, the service was great, it prevented me frm falling aslp.. sorry ah, muz repent! Cannot fall aslp ah!
That I may dwell
In your house forever
Lifting up your name.
Dwell in your house
ForevermoreI like this song's tempo, speaking of tempo, the ans I wrote for this word was rhythm, is it correct?
Posted on: Saturday, August 26, 2006
Posted at: 2:03 AM
Monday is English prelims, ok, frankly speaking, im scared, a lot of 'what if's are going through my brain. Dunno la, scared that I cannot write well enough lohx. Feeling so unsafe, because I felt that I haven studied much for eng, but then again, wads there to study for English?! Haiz. I shall juz rely on God for all the inspiration, good vocab and literary brain cells. Haha, but I muz always rmb to write with my heart, ok, lets store it somewhere so I wont forget. Ahhh! Still a little panicky, nvrm, lets leave the rest to God as long as I do wad is expected of me. Its nice to depend on someone once in a while, haha.
Oh, I think I went out of pt during oral. Sad sad sad.
Muz de-stress or else later become distress, sighs sighs sighs.
I am always lying, which means that I am lying now that I always lie, which means that I am always telling the truth, which means the truth is that I am always lying.. and.. oh great! Im stuck here again, help! Why am I always stuck here huh? :( I juz got it yesterday..haiz, slow slow slow, took me one whole period to get it but juz a few mins to forget again.. paradoxes are fun! Hehehx, though I cannot really get it.
Oh, an interesting fact abt ljk: he has melancholic eyes! Well, sometimes.
Food! Marshymello! Cookys! Candy flossy! Hehehx, I like strawberry milkshake and earthquake! (I mean earthquake the ice cream):p
Posted on: Friday, August 18, 2006
Posted at: 1:32 AM
hehehx...blogging is so fun...
realised that my physics is not any better than my chem, so lousy, diao. how ah? prelims in a few weeks die liao, nvrm, eat... the sight of food perks me up! im a greedy lil pig, oh, and juz a random comment. the honeydew in my sch is sweet! hehehx, going on a healthy diet, muz eat healthy la, u noe, healthy lifestyle...
i wanted to write abt smth but i forgot wat, this always happens to me, diao, blur... wait till i rmb then i write. haha. i think my com really dun like me blogging, everytime i try to blog, it hangs! sighs. oh, im juz wondering how come pple cry sometimes when they talk or share abt spiritual things? i did, and i m wondering why. haha, getting touched by God? dunno. now when i see pple cry when they talk abt spiritual things ah, i feel kinda weird, dunno lehx, i nvr say they cry is bad hor! i juz say i feel weird... but u see, i also dunno why, i dun really cry now, so ya, mabbe i see ppl cry then i feel weird, oops, weird post today, but nvrm...haha, juz a random tot.
whee! i like my blog sia! dunno why, but i like! hahas... hur hur, i want to watch a lot a lot of korean shows, but i cannot! muz resist temptation, study ah, its more impt. nvrm when i finish with my prelims and o's then i will watch and watch like siao! haha. all of my essays are my babies, whether good or not. i regretted it when i tried to write essays that seemed correct, and i flunked all of them, tired ma, dunno wat to write so juz write all the 'supposedly right ans'. now ah, each and every essay is a piece of my heart, even if i dun do well also nvrm, at least i noe i put all my sincerity into it. but i scared when i do well also, cuz later complacent how? so muz always remind myself that each essay must do it with my heart, hahas. hope i can at least do well in my english... oh and i want to thank my cedar jacket for always being with me thru thick and thin, or rather, through hot and cold! lol!
a fact abt ljk: he smiles so sweetly!
Posted on: Wednesday, August 09, 2006
Posted at: 7:20 AM
Today is 9/8/2006, guess what? Its national day! Haha, supposed to go to my grandma's hse but I told my dad I dowan. Took me a lot of courage to say that, cuz I noe that he will be kind of disappointed and I hate or rather fear disappointing pple so ya. So now im the only one at home. I think I went overboard by saying 'there got a lot of pple, I dun like.' Cuz after all, they are still his family, my relatives. So ya.
But I really dun like, so tired, juz recovered only and my throat hurting, I dowan to go there do nth and stare at the tv, not really close to any of them anyway. My grandma is nice, ok la, nice in a way whereby she doesn't scold and she juz remains neutral most of the time we are there. Not like my other grandma, I dun think she Adores me, bcuz u see, Im not a guy and im not taken care of by her, besides, im clumsy, extremely blur, drops everything I get my hands on so ya, can see the difference btw the way she sometimes treats me and her other grandchildren. Fortunately, she has given up scolding me. Ya, I noe one of my aunts and uncles dun like me also bcuz of my clumsiness and my unladylikeness. Fortunately, they have a new born son to bother abt.
So, I dowan to go to my other grandma's hse bcuz im not familiar with the pple, and I dun like or rather fear it when im in an unfamiliar surrounding. Ugh, this fear of so many many many things is driving me crazy, I thought I was past that stage, but apparently not.. yet. Hur hur, my brother angry with me cuz he also dun feel comfortable if I dun go with him. I noe its unfilial not to go and everything but I cannot stand another moment of not knowing wat to say since I always face with the same difficulty all the time, so spare me during the hols. But I feel guilty. Scared scared scared, everything also scared, haiya, even now at home I also scared dunno later wat will happen, hopefully nothing. Juz now scared until want to pray also dunno how to get the words out, dunno scared for wat also, juz suddenly scared lohx. Dumb. Now got the tv yakking away, so nvrm. This year's ndp theme song quite nice, too bad our sch nvr tell us to sing it.
A fact abt lee joon ki: he got cry when he sing eh! I saw on youtube! Did I say before that I like guys who can cry at the right time?
---oh, and I think this yr's ndp parade show is kind of touching..
Posted on: Friday, August 04, 2006
Posted at: 8:08 AM
So long nvr blog liao, hahas, dunno wat to write or rather, too many things to write so in the end nvr write.. ok, I noe this is a little hard to understand, haha. Hmm.. ok, I like the lyrics of this song..
Before the world began
You were on His mind
And every tear you cry
Is precious in His eyes
Because of His great love
He gave His only Son
Everything was done
So you would come
Nothing you can do
Could make Him love you more
And nothing that you've done
Could make Him close the door
Because of His great love
He gave His only Son
Everything was done
So you would come
Come to the Father
Though your gift is small
Broken hearts, broken lives
He will take them all
The power of the Word
The power of His blood
Everything was done
So you would come
Muz read it slowly then can get the true essence of it, haha, the lyrics are very touching, one of my fav songs, Joanne sent it to me, and it was sang on Christmas eve and Christmas. The most amazing thing is that all of that written in the song is true, I believe its true, I choose to believe.
I have chosen to believe a lot of things and I have recently chosen to believe in some pple.Its been a long time since I tried. I dun ever noe why I choose to believe some things or not, or in some pple, but I just believe. *scratches head *im still trying to find out, haha. Slow la, slow in reaction, slow in understanding, bla bla bla, blur ma. But the main pt is, there is a risk in everything I choose to do, so I dunno how much stake I've dumped on my trust in pple. Haha, im blabbering nonsense, as always.
