Posted on: Wednesday, September 02, 2009
Posted at: 12:28 AM
I totally cannot pay attention in school. To me, everything's just a mess. I dont know what they talking about and besides, some of the lectures are just BORING.
Uni seems to be very individualistic...or is it only me? I cant seem to make friends, and whomever i plop beside during lecture, i'll most prob not see the person again? And everyone zhaos very quickly after tutorial! Its getting a little hard to go to school everyday keeping that positive attitude and that smile on the face. I dont mind being alone but almost everyday at every lecture? It just gets to me. I miss church. Dont understand why is it so hard to go out and spend longer time in church without having to quarrel with my parents.
Oops, Im behaving like an angsty 15 yr old emo kid.
And my korean lecturer is talking away about things. He pronounces basic as 'beijic'. How cute! Tml im having 2 consecutive tutorials with nobody I know, except for a possible neighbour who most probs want to avoid me as much as poss. Hee. So looking forward to that man.
Posted on: Saturday, August 01, 2009
Posted at: 9:20 AM
This is a poem that I want to dedicate to God through Imagine 09
Pinned on the Cross.
An inviting embrace
To all who were lost.
Building, shaping, moulding
To build a home
For the wandering lost,
Where hearts are revived and
The one true and living God.
No longer bound
To meaningless things
They finger with the new found idea of
Stretching out slowly
His example of giving love.
Sowing, sacrificing then reaping.
Some we lost
But many were won
Each life a prophecy
Of a great future and hope.
Hands lifted high
To the One in heaven.
To take these willing hands,
Teaching them to draw and play
In new rhythms and new ways.
Creating new visions,
Forging new unions,
Engaging new hands.
I received the inspiration to write a poem about hands during my quiet time, while worshipping God. Subsequently, the ideas that came just flowed and really, without God, I would not have been able to write anything as my ideas at first were all in a mess.
The first stanza speaks about Jesus, the second about pastors and they are a great influence in my life and I would never have the opportunity to grow so much in life without them. I could never do enough to appreciate them. The last two stanzas speak about what i feel we have been doing and are still going to do as a church. The poem is largely in continuous tense, which reflects routine, hard work, perseverance and the consistency in the things we are going to keep doing, evangelising and loving others, not losing the focus and the culture that made us Heart of God Church. From His love, to how pastors love us, and now to us loving others, the four stanzas are a reflection of how Christ's love for us will continue throughout the generations and how we will continue to give that love to the next generation.
However, no matter what or how much we can do, ultimately, it is His Hands that determine us, that puts the creativity in us, which explains the reason for the title.
I hope to glorify God through this. =)
Posted at: 9:19 AM
oh my gosh! I am doing something for Imagine! =p
Posted on: Thursday, July 23, 2009
Posted at: 11:05 PM
Help... I am trying to conjure up something from my brain. My brain is lagging like a babi... haixxx
Posted on: Wednesday, June 17, 2009
Posted at: 7:20 AM
Back from B and C Zone Camp!
It has been such an exciting and refreshing wkend! Love the long break but I love the presence of God even more! Had such powerful services and really received from God so much more than before. Its amazing how God can really encourage someone who was feeling really discouraged, insecure and helpless by His Word.
Even though its the season of barreness, but like Hannah, the desperation should drive me to an even greater hunger for God.
Spent yesterday night, or rather morning, writing down my revelation and it was like 2 pages long. But it was worth it. Now im just going to attack life with greater faith and a greater love. It shall not stop there. A major breakthrough is coming. I can sense it.
Posted on: Thursday, May 21, 2009
Posted at: 8:36 AM
Right now, I am just getting excited over who's gonna be the American Idol.
Not like it'll change my life, but then, this season's just so different! Full of talents, God-seeking talents.
I hope Kris wins.
I saw RED RAIN today!
Posted on: Tuesday, May 19, 2009
Posted at: 7:32 AM
I am sick. And the medicine's having a weird effect on me. Its making my heart beat very fast.
But oh well, at least I have a husky voice and I am loving my two days off. Haha.
I hope tml I'll be able to have more energy to tackle the little todds.
Posted on: Friday, May 15, 2009
Posted at: 7:02 AM
I think I am slowly getting used to my job. At least, I feel that I can handle it better even though its still exhausting and I always cant wait to go home. Just a little sad cuz I know some of the children are still not really comfortable with me yet, then you know children will always just be so honest...I had one guy told me today that he doesn't like teacher belinda. Straight in my face and I was like trying to act cool all. But its still so heartwarming when some children actually bothered to greet you hello and goodbye. Heh. I have this girl who will always call my name so excitedly everytime she sees me even though Im not teaching her. And that is a little thing that can really brighten up the day. And two days ago, two girls randomly ran up to me and hugged my knees and told me they love teacher belinda. Haha I was like, er random but then there's this warm fuzzy feeling.
This just shows how much a person needs love, whether young or old. Of course I am trying not to be biased towards those children who'd listen to me more. And, I think after a few more wks, I'd be an expert at changing diapers. LOL...
Yesterday we just had cg and its really cool to be able to step into the world of teenager rather than teacher again and just be myself and hang out with my friends. Instead of performing a role, I am just being ting wei, which is really relieving.
So I am just going to relax now and do the things I want to do. Even if its for just one night, its still precious to me.